I'M BACK!

Oh my gosh! It's been 9months since my last post? That long already? Where I've been? Oh well, pretty darn busy about life and more mind boggling thoughts. Time passed. Things have change and so does people. Got a lot of things to say and share about. I miss blogging.

Love On Line

Our day is never complete without having to say the three lovely words. Without having to see each other. We thank the technology for bridging the communication and we praise God for keeping us both strong and faithful to each other. We talked until the wee hours in the morning. Talking about anything and everything that concerns us both, of course. I am missing him already as I am typing this. See how much I love him. Had to post something before I retire to bed. Time is unnoticeable when I am talking to him. God bless us both, honey. I love you not only on my mind but deep in my heart. Can't wait to be with you soon.

♫ I don't even want you out of my sight ♫ Can't describe words are not just enough ♫

My weekend would be great. I feel so light and I really loved what I am feeling right now. ♥

Online!

It's Friday, weekend strikes again. Honey is off from work and was able to talk to him during break time at school this afternoon. He was so excited to hear the good news but I got off the hook. Connection wasn't that good. Anyways, after the meeting, drove my way home and wanted to face my PC again. We just miss each other so much. It's less than 6months till he comes home. God, please keep him safe and his dad as well.

When I got home, we talked. We skyped. Haha! Whatta term! While I was enjoying the rocky road ice cream, he was drinking Laban, a yoghurt. I hope I get to taste one someday. In the midst of our conversation, I noticed his eyes were about to drop[hehe], told him to get some rest. Will be waiting for him to wake up. Boy, i'm so stuffed I couldn't even think of having dinner. We had 'pancit' as our snack after the meeting was adjourned. Shobe cooked chicken adobo for dinner.

Went over to my notes and started studying again. FB and skype is on idle mode. Took a break for the meantime and watched SO CLOSE. I love this movie. Not only it defies sisterhood but on valuing relationship, of loving and be loved as well. The action that it showcases adds spice to the movie. Oh my, my tears has fallen. This was the point when Lynn died but before she perished, she recorded a video asking for her younger sister's apology. They had a sort of sisterly misunderstanding :(

Love you, honey. Will wait for you till you get up, that is, ahm, if i'm not sleepy or had fallen asleep yet *wink!*

11:27pm.. He's awake! But in BAD MOOD :( ...shared his annoyance with people who can't even think of contributing a task that would benefit everybody.. blah..blah...he's soooo pissed off...provided him though with a therapeutic communication, that is..the response is quite ok...

Digging deeper

Days ago, i posted something about the complicated heart thing. That was the result of the conversation we had. Oh well, it was more like a test. Got pissed off, irritated, annoyed which lead my emotions to burst. Got hurt then I cried. The following day, we talked again and ironed things out. Sort of not his intention to make me cry but in a way, he did. Sometimes its weird that the person who hurt you is the one that can away the pain, as well. Truly, I love him dearly.

Honey is cooking

Just received a call from honey pabs and he asked how to cook Beef Steak. Told him the details. He will be cooking for their dinner. His 'kababayans' would surely love it.

Depth of Love

We are getting better. We are getting deeper as well. I am digging deeper. Having him in my life filled the space I've been longing to fill in. I could not ask for anyone else. Hope he won't change. Things now are falling into place. Goodluck and God bless to us, both! We came this far and both of us are holding on and that what I felt for him is getting deeper, just like how he feels for me, too ♥♥♥

Overflowing happiness

It's our day. Lord, thank you. We came this far. You made us tough, strong and stood still for our relationship. You are our strength. Praise God!

Thought he may have forgotten. I remember he once said he made that souvenir item of ours with our anniversary on it his desktop image which made me 'kilig'. So sweet of the love of my life.

Just before the midnight strikes, around 11:15Pm, he called! He said he went out to have his laptop checked and as the usual routine goes, his call isn't complete without the exchange of 'iloveyou(s)' and 'mmmwah(s)'. I really thought he would end the call with his 'iloveyou'. Hmmm... Long before he uttered those 3 lovely words, well, his voice was like a shy teenager saying 'happy monthsarry, mommy ko!" then there goes his 'iloveyou'. Each month of our relationship is important to me, eventhough our first year anniversary passed months ago. My honey is getting sweeter each day which made me miss more of him. I always pray for his safety and of his dad. Don't worry honey, time flies. I'll be here waiting. I'll be seeing you soon!

To my bestfriend..my love...my partner, you are so dear to my heart! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

A blessed, happy SUNDAY and my PAPA's 62nd birthday!!

Answered prayer

After lunch, my much awaited document was delivered by a courier. "Surprise me oh Lord", told myself upon opening the package. And screamed out loud when I saw the document. "Waaaaahhhhh!!! Eto na nga [this is it]. Thank you, Lord". God is indeed good all the time. He makes things fall on the right time. I guess my time is coming, approaching and will never waste such time for my dreams to come true. I thank you dear Lord for the blessings you have given me. This is an answered prayer. I have my family, my job, my loving boyfriend [won't ask for anybody else] and praying for a future healthy, God-fearing family with the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life. I think I have found 'the one' already. Bless us oh Lord! I am blessed, indeed!

The call

This afternoon, while watching TV with my family, I thought of my boyfriend wishing he'd call. I missed him so badly. Then, the phone rang. It was him. Waaaaaahhhh!!! Happy mode!! We missed each other. Too bad, he's sick. Get well soon, dy! How i wish I was there on his side taking good care of him. Soon honey don't worry. Don't stress yourself too much. I know work is important but health is more important. Remember, someone here is waiting for you.

We talked and handed the phone to my father. He greeted him and they talked for quite a while. Papa related Zar told him since he can't be with us [obviously] for my Papa's bday, he would make up for the time to bond with my family once he gets home. Looking forward to it, dy! Can't wait! [ehehehe]. Time moves in a flash, I know. Soon enough, we'd be together. I'm HAPPY! Keep on praying! Love you, always :)

The BIRTHDAY

Wow, 62 years of existence. He had lived more than 6 decades of his life. Finished school. Landed on a decent job, including the teaching stint in ADMU several years ago. Had met my mom. Got married and had two lovely, grown up daughters who loves him dearly. And I'm one of them [ehem].

Papa and I went to church to give thee thanks then lit candles. Dropped him off at home before heading to Camillian to grace the invitation of our student's Culmination. Their last day of On the-Job Training.

Got home this evening around 6pm. Was a bit worried that the bakeshop might close soon. The cake hasn't been claimed yet. They [the bakeshop personnel] didn't even bother to call our landline to remind us. Well anyways, since my sister is busy in the kitchen I went out once again and decided to commute instead of driving the motorcycle. The rain might pour at once. Poor me. Was praying "please don't close yet" repeatedly on my mind silently while on my way to Goldilocks. When I got there, voila! The bakeshop is still OPEN!! Yahoo!! I went inside all smiles and claimed the fruity chocolate cake we ordered.

The celebration has started pass 7pm already. Shared foods we prepared with our neighbor. Took pictures and eat all you can, hahaha!! Happy birthday, PA!! We love you so much!

We wish him more years. So, he'd get a chance to see and play along with his future apo [grandchild]. May God bless him more years to come and more life to those coming years.

YOU...

One fine morning, I woke up with a sweet message from you that I was the first person popped on your mind upon waking up. I smiled, hugged my phone and well, kissed your picture [chuckles], what better way to describe the feeling. I missed you so much. You brightened up my day ♥ It makes me giggle [like a teenager who sees her crush] when my phone rings flashing your name on it and totally happy when I hear your voice calling me as your wifey ♥.

♫ 'Cause it's you who fills the emptiness in me ♫

Sweet thoughts popped my mind and planned on doing the following things when we're together..

Eat ice cream together...

Watch movie together...

Stroll somewhere together...

Adventure together...

Enjoy life and each moment together!!!

i love you so much ♥♥♥

What a partner should be...

These past few days, I've been reading updates from my friends on their facebook status about how happy they are of their partners and to some, how miserable it is of having one.

Oh, boy! The latter was an eye catcher. Some of my friends opened up and I portrayed the role of a listener. Listener, yes. I was like a counselor who is open to whatever my client relates but what I did was just listen. I waited for the chance she/they would ask for a piece of advise. If she wanted one, I'll give one. I'm not saying I'm good at this.

I'm happy that my friends finally settled in and joined the bandwagon. I know my time will come to tie the knot and state vows with him. I just couldn't imagine the scenario. I wish it's just as perfect as I perceived it to be. Me and him enduring the most special day of our lives.

For me though, a partner should be...

Faithful. Respects his wife. Doesn't beat his wife. Good provider. Responsible. Patient. Loving [husband and father]. Trustworthy. Regards mutual decisions. God-fearing and best of it all, a friend for keeps.

I do hope and pray that my future hubby will not make things that will surely wreck the home that we built. I guess that would still depend on the person. No one is perfect, everybody makes mistakes but that should make them realize how important they are to their wives and their kids and to the family as a whole. I do pray God would bless us a happy family.

Forever...

It's been awhile, no not awhile...months perhaps since my last post. Actually, I did make some post but were piled up in my drafts. Got so busy with stuffs din kasi. Anyways, how was I? I was doing good. Work is fine. Happy and in-love. The last word knocks off my feet.

They said, long distance relationship doesn't work but that ain't true. From my experience, that ain't true. It's hard. It's difficult when you're far away from the one you love but when you do love each other, never ever break the communication and the trust you have for each other. My partner and I did went through some trials on our relationship. But we never give up on each other. Almost but never push through.

I did pray for a person who would love me the way I wanted to be loved and he came. I also prayed for a relationship that would work and last. Lord, thank you for the gift. He's an answered prayer. No one can ever break what we have right now. We don't let distance affect our relationship. Goodluck on our plans :)

Iloveyou, dy. Can't wait to be with you soon. Do take care of yourself. God Bless to us!

The road is clear for both of us to take holding hands, together..forever.

OUR ANNIVERSARY

It's our anniversary and we're on the freeze mode. How sad :( I'm supposed to have colors and sparkling eyes thinking of the person whose special in my life but then, my aura is of gray for the meantime. Why do I have to experience this once again??? Sent you a message extending my greetings despite the 'space' I gave you. I dunno if you would respond.

Our first misunderstanding was the worst. It still infuriates me thinking of that particular person. I guess it's because that's the time when the real "getting to know each other" part gets serious. We were serious about this relationship. There may be bumps along the way but we will just pass through it smoothly...together!

I am hoping we could talk again soon and resolve what it needs to be resolved. I know this is again another test to our relationship. I always thought of you, honey. I loved you so much. Sometimes people who love each other really have to go through these stages to make their relationship stronger and that giving up isn't the way to solve the problems.

Is it ok to feel this way? Nah..I'm being hurt again. Crying as I am hitting the keyboard of my PC. Why? do explain why. I know this phase will PASS. We got over with the first one and this time around, it's something else. It's your call.

Thinking of you [still] :(

Presently online, talking to a friend whose heart has torn into pieces... having a terrible experience with her boyfriend [duh]. Had to keep her company for at least a few hours because I couldn't make myself be available on her side. Go ahead, cry. It'll make you ease the pain, at least for the mean time. I know emotional pain takes longer to heal than physical one. I pity my friend zem. Time will come, all he did will get back at him triple times and that man will surely experience much hurt than you do. I am not saying you do some foolish acts of making him jealous by flirting with someone else. It's not our thing. Let them be if they are used to doing such. At least, you found out soon enough before tying the knot. Decent women like us doesn't deserve to be treated like this by those fools. But still, you guys should talk pa rin. The decision is still up to both of you.

Let's just pray God provides you with enlightenment, strength and peace of mind.

Keep yourself busy, my dear. Nothing will happen if you keep on thinking about him.

Sometimes, you're good at giving advice about love and when you're the one experiencing difficulties in relationships, you can't help yourself. I never shared zem, I too was having rough road with my honey. We're on the FREEZE MODE again and he has something to do about it. I had to keep this 'unusually quiet' mode towards him because I'm hurting [again]. I am waiting for his explanation. Do resolved what it needs to be resolved.

We never spoke for days already and 3 days to go, its our Anniversary na. Surely, I miss him and love him still. I'd be a hypocrite if I'd say I don't think of him. He's always included in my prayers. I thank God also for making me discover things.

Father's Day

Sent a message to my honey. Reminding him to greet his daddy tomorrow. I just love it hearing him share stories about him and his dad. I am glad they continues to communicate even though they're far. When God would bless me [us] a child, distance won't affect the relationship between my child and his father. I would see to it that he's always at home with us. God willing. :)

Love you, daddy. I pray that you'll always be safe working there as well as your father. Keep safe. Do eat your meals on time. I miss you so much. I'll be seeing you soon. :)

In the clouds again ;-)

I'm just happy and love the feeling. Feels good to be back in the clouds again. Had a good talk with my partner and we're on the good side of the road again. I hope this will be for good. Thank you Lord! See you in a few months, honey. I LOVE YOU, TOO!! Take care always, ok? Keep safe.

I have to post this before I retire to bed. Will be sleeping with a smile on my face ;-) Goodnight!

Neutral Mode

It's Friday. Their off. We talked. Was a bit surprised he admitted something but according to him, it's nothing. He explained. I listened. I understand. I was expecting though he would say 'sorry' cause in a way, I got hurt. And nope, he did not say so. Ouch! That is not good. Fine, it's his prerogative. I can't do anything about that. At least he was able to say something about the issue as I have told him the root of the issue. Women's intuition are sometimes correct if you've got an evidence. Am I mad? Nope. Not anymore. It doesn't worry me at all. Gone are the days of my emotional state. Women like me tends to be emotional when it comes to relationship. Who wanted to be cheated or fooled anyway? Nobody. No one. And I don't like that and I don't deserve that. I need an honest partner who will never hide anything from me. I just need to trust him more. Temptations are everywhere and if you have high respect, faithfulness and love for your partner, those clinging vines are nothing. They must make their way out of the trellis. Cut them and throw them out!

Things are somewhat in the neutral mode this time. It's like were back together and whatever we have right now that is hanging before is kinda lifted a bit. Me and my partner trying to save something. It should be the both of us. I'm hoping things will be just be as normal as it used to be. Just the two of us. Hoping also no vines will cling around. Girls, ya know what I mean. I miss those times. Its hypocrisy if I said I didn't miss him. Just wanted him always to take care of himself. Keep safe. I still care for him though. He knows that siguro.

Thank God for letting us talk again. I believe things happens for a reason. Goodnight!

Relax and Unwind

As much as I wanted to stay home, my foot is eager to go somewhere. I received an invitation from Van and her students to go with them at Claire John Resort located at Punta Biao, Cogon Digos City. Its a secured pool resort near the beach so visitors has the option to breeze-in through the ocean waters. The weather is somewhat inviting and so with the heat from the sun. Sunblocks are a must!!

Mapi feel mo na Summer is already here...

Checked on the things to bring and off we go. I was dropped off at the Resort by my sister and her bf. On our way to the Resort, sige mi agik-ik ug katawa tingalig mangahulog ang lukay sa lubi sa amoa mao na sige mi hangad...hahahaha!!

And the road going there? oh my, you were like riding an off-road vehicle, up and down a hill.

Entrance ranges from P10-20 only. Yes, that cheap. They took the biggest cottage and when I asked and looked for the students, some of them were already swimming looking like kids [smiles]. Found out also our amegah [friend] is coming and on his way. I convinced him kasi super stressed din si amegah. This is gonna be fun!

I was really planning to swim but I was having doubts plunging looking at the pool water. It's already crowded and I withdrawn. Anyways, I'll just feast my eyes on the joyful moments of our students. It will make me feel good though.

I brought along my camera and partner tripod. Yen opted to be the photographer that day. My tripod gave him a big help, he gets to be with group including us during picture taking.

When Jopay arrived, the tres mujeres [3 women] had a pictorial again and seize the moments eating pinipig. The food they prepared was good. Thank you so much for inviting us over. We, your teachers really need this.

I did have a good time. The calming breeze of the water alleviated some stressor(s) around me. No worries bothers me anymore 'cause GOD never left me and I'm still blessed because He lead me to the path where I should be going. God bless to us all. :)

The Talkback

After days or weeks of ignorance and avoidance, we talked again but didn't last long. He read my blog which prompted him to send me a message. Now I know he was really mad. Mad about me, perhaps. Kung nagseselos man ang girlfriend mo or may pinagseselosan man sya, it only means mahal ka ng babaeng ito. Kasi naman kung minsan, may mga asungot lang sa tabi-tabing nagpapapansin. But it's ok, I trust you and I know you won't get yourself smitten by this people. You know how much I feel and care for you. You know how special you are to me. I understand how you feel and you being distant for the mean time. Thanks for that short period we spoke. At least, you were able to say something.

As they say, time heals all wounds. You got hurt, I share the same sentiments. I got hurt, too. And yes dear, there will be time for things to be settled. I'll just be here. Take good care of yourself always and keep safe. God speed.

Learning more about the Lola's

Today is the Graduating Class' Recollection at San Isidro Church. Graduation is forthcoming next Wednesday. I dropped by at School first before heading to church. Had to meet up with the Registrar concerning the academic standing of one of our students.

At the church, the Graduating class officers handed in the remembrance T-shirts with an Adviser printed at the back. Thank you, guyz! :) Lunch time came, we started distributing the foods for each student. It was a good experience. Na happy jud ko. :) Jopet, Van and I had a short talk may our students learn the value of this whole day event and instill in their minds the moral lessons people from the church imparted. I do pray also for the reconciliation of someone very close to me. May our minds be enlightened! You Take care always. Keep safe :)

At 2:30pm, we headed to the Shelter for the Elderly. Our students interaction with the Elderly's at the Camillian continues. People there including Sister Minda were glad to have us back since most of the Lola's [tagalog term for Elderly's] has seen quite improvement most especially their human relations. We, the Faculty from HCS Department is thankful also to the Camillian Sisters for gracing us the time to spend with the Lola's.

Truly, you became our extended family. Caring for the Elderly is not that easy. Sometimes, you feel sorry and pity towards them knowing some of their family members still exist. But no matter what, we're here for you Lola's and we'll continue to visit you often times. We love you so.

One of the jolly Lola in the Shelter is Lola Lila. She has a sharp memory. She could remember ones identity by means of holding on to her palms. I was touched when one instance I introduced myself to her and told her that I am one of the Instructors of the trainees who were taking care of them. She uttered my fullname and my designation when I hold on to her palms. She was about to tell me something but that time, dinner is served for them. Yup, as early as 5pm kasi they had to go to bed early also. Don't worry Lola Lila, we'll be back on Monday. I am missing you already.

While waiting for our students to finished doing after care, I continued conversing with Sister Minda. She handed me this clear book and I was surprised to see an array of the Blessed Virgin Mary's photos. It became her hobby of collecting pictures of the Sacred Our lady from all over the world. She had an extraordinary collection. Now, she began collecting photos of different churches and she related she'll start with the ancient ones. Told her am gonna take pictures of churches in Luzon or where ever may pagkalaagan takes me..hehehe! When I get the chance to have a short vacation.

We never went back to San Isidro 'cause we thought they finished as scheduled. We headed home instead. My day was not put to waste. :) Thank God for the guidance and for leading me to the good side as what You always do to people who believe in You.

Unbelievable...

When you're in a relationship, you learn a lot of things about your partner. Here you get to discover things that will either make or break a relationship.

Misunderstandings are part of the trials couples experience. Di ba pag may misunderstandings, dapat ma resolve agad? How come in my case its different? Parang walang gustong gawin yung partner ko even if you were trying to reach out to him. Sabagay, there's an issue kasi eh. The misunderstanding episode we had lasted for 1 week and will turn 2 this week. Ganon at natitiis mo na talaga ako ha. Grabe ka! What made the long run? Ask him. You are sooo uptight! Loosen up a bit.

Tried to reach out to you so we could patch things up but what were you doing?? An act of Ignorance and Avoidance. Doesn't that mean you've really got some explaining to do? I'll be all ears.

When you are asked, you seem to avoid talking about it. It's either you dropped her like a hot potato or simply ignore her. Fine, fine. Look who's being rude.

You suddenly changed. You weren't like this before. I guess your pride is keeping you from being true to yourself. Pride, pride, pride. Why won't you talk to me? Speak up! Be man enough! Let me know what's on your mind.

If you're mad, let me know. How would I know your feelings if you are obviously distant? I thought you were different from anybody else but what did I got, DISAPPOINTMENT! Oh come on, we're not teenagers anymore. We're on our 30's already. Time to get mature with our actions. I admit, I maybe childish sometimes but I am serious often times. But yours? Your pride is eating you up. Goodluck my dear. Keep that pride within you if you opt to stay that way. Nothing will happen to the relationship if you let that pride control you. I've done my part to reach out but still PRIDE RULES for you. So, be it. Remain to be secretive.

And speaking of secrecy, a couple should be open to each other. I got irritated from a response from you concerning passwords.

One time, I logged-in on his account only to find out he had it change without informing me. Darn!

During our conversation, I reminded him to harvest his crops 'cause it may gone to waste or withered. You asked why I wasn't able to harvest it and when I answered you have changed your password, you just laughed. Do u think it's funny, to make me look stupid? Pissed off. Excuse me, I never asked for your password then. It was you who insisted to let me have it to have your farms tended but then, why the sudden changed?? Are you hiding something? I dunno, only you could answer that question.

You could have told me "I'm gonna change my password." or "Oy, pinalitan ko na password ko, FYI" . At least, I knew. "Ahh ok" [this would be my answer]. That's it. I will not bother myself to look after your farms. I respect your rights, your privacy but don't make me look stupid 'cause I don't deserve to be treated this way. I don't deserve to be played around. Do pay some respect. I really felt bad about that incident. I hope you'll realize things and see the importance of valuing people and their feelings. Be sensitive and considerate also to someone else's feelings. Are you fond of doing such thing?

You're the one making the move to make me think things that I shouldn't be thinking. What we need in a relationship is TRUST, FAITHFULNESS, RESPECT, LOYALTY and LOVE. Despite the distance. We once vowed we'll make it work. Now, what? What we have is hanging on a cliff.

There may be anguish, bitterness and a mixed of emotions about this post but that special feeling still lingers...

Now, tell me. Who's unbelievable? :)

True love

Just wanna share a text message sent by a friend:

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength,

While loving someone deeply

gives you courage and inspiration . . .

Continue to love and be loved!

A very timely message since I'm happy and currently in love right now :)

Congrats on your new laptop, honey! I miss you! ;-)

Tsunami alerts cancelled

Last night, pass 1am, I chance upon Ate Che's post about a Tsunami that is expected to hit Philippines today at 1:27pm. I couldn't sleep. I thought of a lot of things. I was the only person who was still awake at that time [which usually happens, hehe]. I came across online news and found a link on the shattering 8.8 magnitude quake that hit CHILE around 3:34am Saturday. Shocking images of the tragedy left a terrible remembrance. The once sturdy buildings turned into splinters in a snap. Not long after the Haiti quake, here comes another devastating catastrophe.

Fostering awareness, i posted a link on my facebook account regarding the quake and the tsunami which is to hit the Pacific coast within 24hours after the quake.

My friend Gracey who is based in Hawaii received a surprised rather a panicking call from her Mom informing her of the approaching major wave to hit the island of Hawaii at an expected time. Glad to know through her post after several hours that everyone there now is safe.

excerpts from online news:

The Pacific Tsunami Warning Center issued a tsunami warning. In an interview on ABS-CBN, Renato Solidum, director of the Philippine Institute for Volcanology and Seismology (Phivolcs), said that if the Chile earthquake did generate tsunami waves powerful enough to cross the Pacific, they may be expected to hit Philippine coastlines sometime between 1:30 p.m. and 2 p.m. on Sunday.

Let us all PRAY...

Noon time, I received a text message from 2 of my student who lives near the shore in Sta. Cruz informing me that they are evacuating and will be heading up to the hills where their relatives resides. In that way also, they could observe changes on the quiet ocean.

Afternoon came, alert pa rin kami. Thank God, it passed the expected time. Our television is still on CNN, awaiting updates while helping Papa pack his stuffs. Since my father has to report for work tomorrow, I drove and dropped him off at the Bus terminal. God Bless his travel.

Late in the afternoon, another text message was sent by the same student telling me they'll go back to their home sweet home.

Tsunami alerts may have been cancelled but we people should still pay attention and stay alert on what may have happen. As I am typing this, I am trying to observe the nature around me and at the same time, praying. We live around 750 meters away from the nearby coastal areas. Oh my, oh my, It's windy outside. We never know. That giant wave might strike while people were asleep. And sometimes, an unusual weather signals something. I am trying to be positive and my Faith makes me more stronger.

Let us continue to pray for the survival of those who are still trapped in their homes and other establishments. And pray for the repose of the soul of those whose lives were taken.

We thank you, dear Lord for the continued guidance and for keeping us all safe. God knows what's best for us. I always believe in that phrase that's why He never leaves our side.