Saturday, March 13, 2010

Unbelievable...

When you're in a relationship, you learn a lot of things about your partner. Here you get to discover things that will either make or break a relationship.

Misunderstandings are part of the trials couples experience. Di ba pag may misunderstandings, dapat ma resolve agad? How come in my case its different? Parang walang gustong gawin yung partner ko even if you were trying to reach out to him. Sabagay, there's an issue kasi eh. The misunderstanding episode we had lasted for 1 week and will turn 2 this week. Ganon at natitiis mo na talaga ako ha. Grabe ka! What made the long run? Ask him. You are sooo uptight! Loosen up a bit.

Tried to reach out to you so we could patch things up but what were you doing?? An act of Ignorance and Avoidance. Doesn't that mean you've really got some explaining to do? I'll be all ears.

When you are asked, you seem to avoid talking about it. It's either you dropped her like a hot potato or simply ignore her. Fine, fine. Look who's being rude.

You suddenly changed. You weren't like this before. I guess your pride is keeping you from being true to yourself. Pride, pride, pride. Why won't you talk to me? Speak up! Be man enough! Let me know what's on your mind.

If you're mad, let me know. How would I know your feelings if you are obviously distant? I thought you were different from anybody else but what did I got, DISAPPOINTMENT! Oh come on, we're not teenagers anymore. We're on our 30's already. Time to get mature with our actions. I admit, I maybe childish sometimes but I am serious often times. But yours? Your pride is eating you up. Goodluck my dear. Keep that pride within you if you opt to stay that way. Nothing will happen to the relationship if you let that pride control you. I've done my part to reach out but still PRIDE RULES for you. So, be it. Remain to be secretive.

And speaking of secrecy, a couple should be open to each other. I got irritated from a response from you concerning passwords.

One time, I logged-in on his account only to find out he had it change without informing me. Darn!

During our conversation, I reminded him to harvest his crops 'cause it may gone to waste or withered. You asked why I wasn't able to harvest it and when I answered you have changed your password, you just laughed. Do u think it's funny, to make me look stupid? Pissed off. Excuse me, I never asked for your password then. It was you who insisted to let me have it to have your farms tended but then, why the sudden changed?? Are you hiding something? I dunno, only you could answer that question.

You could have told me "I'm gonna change my password." or "Oy, pinalitan ko na password ko, FYI" . At least, I knew. "Ahh ok" [this would be my answer]. That's it. I will not bother myself to look after your farms. I respect your rights, your privacy but don't make me look stupid 'cause I don't deserve to be treated this way. I don't deserve to be played around. Do pay some respect. I really felt bad about that incident. I hope you'll realize things and see the importance of valuing people and their feelings. Be sensitive and considerate also to someone else's feelings. Are you fond of doing such thing?

You're the one making the move to make me think things that I shouldn't be thinking. What we need in a relationship is TRUST, FAITHFULNESS, RESPECT, LOYALTY and LOVE. Despite the distance. We once vowed we'll make it work. Now, what? What we have is hanging on a cliff.

There may be anguish, bitterness and a mixed of emotions about this post but that special feeling still lingers...

Now, tell me. Who's unbelievable? :)

Monday, March 8, 2010

SNICKER-DOODLE


I got my first taste of this delicacy when I attended the Seminar on LOVE & COMMITMENT, as per invitation by my good friend Edz. At first, you'd think its an ordinary pancake or the native palitaw [grind rice cake, sort of] topped with cinnamon powder. But this one is more like a baked biscuit.

Anyways, we had a short meeting [Shane, Edz and I] for the upcoming Alumni Homecoming of our dear Alma Mater. Edz served some coffee and that started a long way of our conversation. From the arrival of Shane's vacation from an Asian Escapade, matters of the heart follows 'cause of his post on his Facebook account, [hmmm...well, on my part, can't relate too much excitement since we're not in good terms right now with my honey but surely i miss him so much..], work loads, relevant stuffs and this blogger and Edz were in total excitement when Shane mentioned we can set foot to Asia or have it call an Asian Escapade too, at a very affortable cost once the right time calls for it. Weeee!!!! He's got some ideas kasi, wait niyo na lang, ok? I'll be posting some pictures, of course! hehehe :B

And...the main highlight of the meet up was the upcoming graduation ball. We still have few more weeks to prepare and we do hope everything will take place as planned. We are crossing our fingers.

Anyways, Shane and Edz will meet up with the School President on Wednesday to talk on important matters. Can't go with them since we're a bit busy at school setting up for the inspection which will be conducted by TESDA. Our school applied for the accreditation as Assessment Center for Health Care Services NC 2, Computer Hardware Servicing NC 2, Bartending NC 2 and other competencies from the HRM Department. Hopefully, approval shall be granted. We'll pray for that.

Thanks, guys! It was a good coffee-bonding. A single cup or should I say MUG [hehe] of coffee goes a long way of chitchat and exploration of brilliant ideas and visions. Looking forward to the fulfillment of the group's plans. Thank you for the SNICKER-DOODLE, Edz. As promised, I extended my gratitude on my Facebook account. Pres, thanks for taking me home :)

Goodnight :)

Monday, March 1, 2010

True love


Just wanna share a text message sent by a friend:

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength,
While loving someone deeply
gives you courage and inspiration . . .

Continue to love and be loved!

A very timely message since I'm happy and currently in love right now :)
Congrats on your new laptop, honey! I miss you! ;-)

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Tsunami alerts cancelled

Last night, pass 1am, I chance upon Ate Che's post about a Tsunami that is expected to hit Philippines today at 1:27pm. I couldn't sleep. I thought of a lot of things. I was the only person who was still awake at that time [which usually happens, hehe]. I came across online news and found a link on the shattering 8.8 magnitude quake that hit CHILE around 3:34am Saturday. Shocking images of the tragedy left a terrible remembrance. The once sturdy buildings turned into splinters in a snap. Not long after the Haiti quake, here comes another devastating catastrophe.

Fostering awareness, i posted a link on my facebook account regarding the quake and the tsunami which is to hit the Pacific coast within 24hours after the quake.

My friend Gracey who is based in Hawaii received a surprised rather a panicking call from her Mom informing her of the approaching major wave to hit the island of Hawaii at an expected time. Glad to know through her post after several hours that everyone there now is safe.

excerpts from online news:
The Pacific Tsunami Warning Center issued a tsunami warning. In an interview on ABS-CBN, Renato Solidum, director of the Philippine Institute for Volcanology and Seismology (Phivolcs), said that if the Chile earthquake did generate tsunami waves powerful enough to cross the Pacific, they may be expected to hit Philippine coastlines sometime between 1:30 p.m. and 2 p.m. on Sunday.

Let us all PRAY...

Noon time, I received a text message from 2 of my student who lives near the shore in Sta. Cruz informing me that they are evacuating and will be heading up to the hills where their relatives resides. In that way also, they could observe changes on the quiet ocean.

Afternoon came, alert pa rin kami. Thank God, it passed the expected time. Our television is still on CNN, awaiting updates while helping Papa pack his stuffs. Since my father has to report for work tomorrow, I drove and dropped him off at the Bus terminal. God Bless his travel.

Late in the afternoon, another text message was sent by the same student telling me they'll go back to their home sweet home.

Tsunami alerts may have been cancelled but we people should still pay attention and stay alert on what may have happen. As I am typing this, I am trying to observe the nature around me and at the same time, praying. We live around 750 meters away from the nearby coastal areas. Oh my, oh my, It's windy outside. We never know. That giant wave might strike while people were asleep. And sometimes, an unusual weather signals something. I am trying to be positive and my Faith makes me more stronger.

Let us continue to pray for the survival of those who are still trapped in their homes and other establishments. And pray for the repose of the soul of those whose lives were taken.

We thank you, dear Lord for the continued guidance and for keeping us all safe. God knows what's best for us. I always believe in that phrase that's why He never leaves our side.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Betrayed


I long for the love that will make me happy...
Longed for the person who will truly love me...
Who can be trusted, faithful and worthy of my affection...
I thought I've found one but you left me alone

I couldn't let the scenario
pass through my mind..
you..her..talking...
laughing...ugh!

I felt the deep stab wound in my heart..
So painful, an emotional pain...
Pain reliever couldn't ease the pain...

You lied, pretended and betrayed the love I have given
Shame on you, you made me believe
that ours was true..
ours was genuine..
but you failed me...
you hurt me!

I was hurt..deeply hurt...
my body was trembling when i caught you both..
It happened..i'll never forget that..
You asked for an apology, i accepted...
I've forgiven you because I loved you...
Don't make me hate you...
I was good at you...
You weren't with me...
You disappoint me :(
And you betrayed me

-reel-

confused

It's pass 3am, 3:20am to be exact and couldn't sleep. A lot of things is lurking on my mind. Is it due to stress from work? life? love life? Ahm, I guess the 3rd one is closer. I just need peace of mind. How do I get over this feeling?

Sometimes, I am the type of a person who reserves feelings and emotions especially when it comes to the matters of the heart. I know, I know this should be spoken out. This should be ventilated. My thoughts are contradicting with what my heart is telling. Just when you thought everything is falling into place, someone tries to ruin it. Someone tries to intrude. Someone makes it complicated.

The road was clear to pass and a manhole just popped, waiting for someone to fall so this person can fill-in the spot. A space that is not meant for this person anymore. Move on with your life!!

Best bud patz, let's have coffee.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Sad Valentines :(


This was supposed to be a day full of love.

I somewhat expected I'd be having a warm valentines but what surprised me was a cold treatment. I dunno. Maybe people would expect you to do something against your will. Maybe someone else can accomplish such thing for your sake! How selfish!

Basta, malungkot ang Valentine's ko... Hindi RED ang kulay kundi BLUE.