Tuesday, June 29, 2010

OUR ANNIVERSARY

It's our anniversary and we're on the freeze mode. How sad :( I'm supposed to have colors and sparkling eyes thinking of the person whose special in my life but then, my aura is of gray for the meantime. Why do I have to experience this once again??? Sent you a message extending my greetings despite the 'space' I gave you. I dunno if you would respond.

Our first misunderstanding was the worst. It still infuriates me thinking of that particular person. I guess it's because that's the time when the real "getting to know each other" part gets serious. We were serious about this relationship. There may be bumps along the way but we will just pass through it smoothly...together!

I am hoping we could talk again soon and resolve what it needs to be resolved. I know this is again another test to our relationship. I always thought of you, honey. I loved you so much. Sometimes people who love each other really have to go through these stages to make their relationship stronger and that giving up isn't the way to solve the problems.

Is it ok to feel this way? Nah..I'm being hurt again. Crying as I am hitting the keyboard of my PC. Why? do explain why. I know this phase will PASS. We got over with the first one and this time around, it's something else. It's your call.


Saturday, June 26, 2010

Thinking of you [still] :(

Presently online, talking to a friend whose heart has torn into pieces... having a terrible experience with her boyfriend [duh]. Had to keep her company for at least a few hours because I couldn't make myself be available on her side. Go ahead, cry. It'll make you ease the pain, at least for the mean time. I know emotional pain takes longer to heal than physical one. I pity my friend zem. Time will come, all he did will get back at him triple times and that man will surely experience much hurt than you do. I am not saying you do some foolish acts of making him jealous by flirting with someone else. It's not our thing. Let them be if they are used to doing such. At least, you found out soon enough before tying the knot. Decent women like us doesn't deserve to be treated like this by those fools. But still, you guys should talk pa rin. The decision is still up to both of you.

Let's just pray God provides you with enlightenment, strength and peace of mind.

Keep yourself busy, my dear. Nothing will happen if you keep on thinking about him.

Sometimes, you're good at giving advice about love and when you're the one experiencing difficulties in relationships, you can't help yourself. I never shared zem, I too was having rough road with my honey. We're on the FREEZE MODE again and he has something to do about it. I had to keep this 'unusually quiet' mode towards him because I'm hurting [again]. I am waiting for his explanation. Do resolved what it needs to be resolved.

We never spoke for days already and 3 days to go, its our Anniversary na. Surely, I miss him and love him still. I'd be a hypocrite if I'd say I don't think of him. He's always included in my prayers. I thank God also for making me discover things.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Father's Day

Sent a message to my honey. Reminding him to greet his daddy tomorrow. I just love it hearing him share stories about him and his dad. I am glad they continues to communicate even though they're far. When God would bless me [us] a child, distance won't affect the relationship between my child and his father. I would see to it that he's always at home with us. God willing. :)

Love you, daddy. I pray that you'll always be safe working there as well as your father. Keep safe. Do eat your meals on time. I miss you so much. I'll be seeing you soon. :)