Neutral Mode

It's Friday. Their off. We talked. Was a bit surprised he admitted something but according to him, it's nothing. He explained. I listened. I understand. I was expecting though he would say 'sorry' cause in a way, I got hurt. And nope, he did not say so. Ouch! That is not good. Fine, it's his prerogative. I can't do anything about that. At least he was able to say something about the issue as I have told him the root of the issue. Women's intuition are sometimes correct if you've got an evidence. Am I mad? Nope. Not anymore. It doesn't worry me at all. Gone are the days of my emotional state. Women like me tends to be emotional when it comes to relationship. Who wanted to be cheated or fooled anyway? Nobody. No one. And I don't like that and I don't deserve that. I need an honest partner who will never hide anything from me. I just need to trust him more. Temptations are everywhere and if you have high respect, faithfulness and love for your partner, those clinging vines are nothing. They must make their way out of the trellis. Cut them and throw them out!

Things are somewhat in the neutral mode this time. It's like were back together and whatever we have right now that is hanging before is kinda lifted a bit. Me and my partner trying to save something. It should be the both of us. I'm hoping things will be just be as normal as it used to be. Just the two of us. Hoping also no vines will cling around. Girls, ya know what I mean. I miss those times. Its hypocrisy if I said I didn't miss him. Just wanted him always to take care of himself. Keep safe. I still care for him though. He knows that siguro.

Thank God for letting us talk again. I believe things happens for a reason. Goodnight!

Relax and Unwind

As much as I wanted to stay home, my foot is eager to go somewhere. I received an invitation from Van and her students to go with them at Claire John Resort located at Punta Biao, Cogon Digos City. Its a secured pool resort near the beach so visitors has the option to breeze-in through the ocean waters. The weather is somewhat inviting and so with the heat from the sun. Sunblocks are a must!!

Mapi feel mo na Summer is already here...

Checked on the things to bring and off we go. I was dropped off at the Resort by my sister and her bf. On our way to the Resort, sige mi agik-ik ug katawa tingalig mangahulog ang lukay sa lubi sa amoa mao na sige mi hangad...hahahaha!!

And the road going there? oh my, you were like riding an off-road vehicle, up and down a hill.

Entrance ranges from P10-20 only. Yes, that cheap. They took the biggest cottage and when I asked and looked for the students, some of them were already swimming looking like kids [smiles]. Found out also our amegah [friend] is coming and on his way. I convinced him kasi super stressed din si amegah. This is gonna be fun!

I was really planning to swim but I was having doubts plunging looking at the pool water. It's already crowded and I withdrawn. Anyways, I'll just feast my eyes on the joyful moments of our students. It will make me feel good though.

I brought along my camera and partner tripod. Yen opted to be the photographer that day. My tripod gave him a big help, he gets to be with group including us during picture taking.

When Jopay arrived, the tres mujeres [3 women] had a pictorial again and seize the moments eating pinipig. The food they prepared was good. Thank you so much for inviting us over. We, your teachers really need this.

I did have a good time. The calming breeze of the water alleviated some stressor(s) around me. No worries bothers me anymore 'cause GOD never left me and I'm still blessed because He lead me to the path where I should be going. God bless to us all. :)

The Talkback

After days or weeks of ignorance and avoidance, we talked again but didn't last long. He read my blog which prompted him to send me a message. Now I know he was really mad. Mad about me, perhaps. Kung nagseselos man ang girlfriend mo or may pinagseselosan man sya, it only means mahal ka ng babaeng ito. Kasi naman kung minsan, may mga asungot lang sa tabi-tabing nagpapapansin. But it's ok, I trust you and I know you won't get yourself smitten by this people. You know how much I feel and care for you. You know how special you are to me. I understand how you feel and you being distant for the mean time. Thanks for that short period we spoke. At least, you were able to say something.

As they say, time heals all wounds. You got hurt, I share the same sentiments. I got hurt, too. And yes dear, there will be time for things to be settled. I'll just be here. Take good care of yourself always and keep safe. God speed.

Learning more about the Lola's

Today is the Graduating Class' Recollection at San Isidro Church. Graduation is forthcoming next Wednesday. I dropped by at School first before heading to church. Had to meet up with the Registrar concerning the academic standing of one of our students.

At the church, the Graduating class officers handed in the remembrance T-shirts with an Adviser printed at the back. Thank you, guyz! :) Lunch time came, we started distributing the foods for each student. It was a good experience. Na happy jud ko. :) Jopet, Van and I had a short talk may our students learn the value of this whole day event and instill in their minds the moral lessons people from the church imparted. I do pray also for the reconciliation of someone very close to me. May our minds be enlightened! You Take care always. Keep safe :)

At 2:30pm, we headed to the Shelter for the Elderly. Our students interaction with the Elderly's at the Camillian continues. People there including Sister Minda were glad to have us back since most of the Lola's [tagalog term for Elderly's] has seen quite improvement most especially their human relations. We, the Faculty from HCS Department is thankful also to the Camillian Sisters for gracing us the time to spend with the Lola's.

Truly, you became our extended family. Caring for the Elderly is not that easy. Sometimes, you feel sorry and pity towards them knowing some of their family members still exist. But no matter what, we're here for you Lola's and we'll continue to visit you often times. We love you so.

One of the jolly Lola in the Shelter is Lola Lila. She has a sharp memory. She could remember ones identity by means of holding on to her palms. I was touched when one instance I introduced myself to her and told her that I am one of the Instructors of the trainees who were taking care of them. She uttered my fullname and my designation when I hold on to her palms. She was about to tell me something but that time, dinner is served for them. Yup, as early as 5pm kasi they had to go to bed early also. Don't worry Lola Lila, we'll be back on Monday. I am missing you already.

While waiting for our students to finished doing after care, I continued conversing with Sister Minda. She handed me this clear book and I was surprised to see an array of the Blessed Virgin Mary's photos. It became her hobby of collecting pictures of the Sacred Our lady from all over the world. She had an extraordinary collection. Now, she began collecting photos of different churches and she related she'll start with the ancient ones. Told her am gonna take pictures of churches in Luzon or where ever may pagkalaagan takes me..hehehe! When I get the chance to have a short vacation.

We never went back to San Isidro 'cause we thought they finished as scheduled. We headed home instead. My day was not put to waste. :) Thank God for the guidance and for leading me to the good side as what You always do to people who believe in You.

S A D

Its 2 days before my birthday. I was rooting for this digital camera these past weeks. A CANON A470 ON SALE!! Waaaaaaaa!!!! Every time I visit this store, I never miss that spot that displays this camera. Oh my, once I got hold of this, no moments will be missed out! What's with this camera by the way? oh it is multifunctional. Funky colors to choose from. But on the display is blue which looks like the image. It also has this multiple-face detector which my present digital camera doesn't have, a 7.1 MP resolution, a high-speed ISO 1600 shooting and low power consumption it uses double AA batteries. And the screen? Its like 2.5" LCD which I like since you get a larger view of the image.

I was hoping no one would buy that one. No one sees it. I even jested the saleslady to place it on the side, back portion, hehehe!! I'll come back for that camera, for sure.

The day has come. I was so excited. Excited to own that DC. The excitement drastically turned into disappointment when I looked for it on the display and the saleslady said "Wala na maam, nahalin na sya" ["Its already sold ma'am."] "What? you gotta be kidding me! It can't be. It's mine. Waaaaaa". No, I never uttered those words. It was my mind that speaks. I felt bad. Speechless. I was with my sister. She told me when we got home that she was hesitant to approach me when I found out 'cause I was about to freak out! hahahaha, I didn't freak out. I was calm. Disappointed but calm. I guess she based that on my facial reaction. .

Told myself, "Hey, look on the brighter side! I'll have a much better digital camera soon. Fit for my hobby of capturing moments." I should have bought that in the first place since I have the funds. But, during this time, I was pretty undecided.

Oh well, if things aren't for you well it's not meant to be. I just need to accept it, right? Looking forward to own a Sony Cybershot or Canon IXUS digital camera. Well, gotta save for it!!

Unbelievable...

When you're in a relationship, you learn a lot of things about your partner. Here you get to discover things that will either make or break a relationship.

Misunderstandings are part of the trials couples experience. Di ba pag may misunderstandings, dapat ma resolve agad? How come in my case its different? Parang walang gustong gawin yung partner ko even if you were trying to reach out to him. Sabagay, there's an issue kasi eh. The misunderstanding episode we had lasted for 1 week and will turn 2 this week. Ganon at natitiis mo na talaga ako ha. Grabe ka! What made the long run? Ask him. You are sooo uptight! Loosen up a bit.

Tried to reach out to you so we could patch things up but what were you doing?? An act of Ignorance and Avoidance. Doesn't that mean you've really got some explaining to do? I'll be all ears.

When you are asked, you seem to avoid talking about it. It's either you dropped her like a hot potato or simply ignore her. Fine, fine. Look who's being rude.

You suddenly changed. You weren't like this before. I guess your pride is keeping you from being true to yourself. Pride, pride, pride. Why won't you talk to me? Speak up! Be man enough! Let me know what's on your mind.

If you're mad, let me know. How would I know your feelings if you are obviously distant? I thought you were different from anybody else but what did I got, DISAPPOINTMENT! Oh come on, we're not teenagers anymore. We're on our 30's already. Time to get mature with our actions. I admit, I maybe childish sometimes but I am serious often times. But yours? Your pride is eating you up. Goodluck my dear. Keep that pride within you if you opt to stay that way. Nothing will happen to the relationship if you let that pride control you. I've done my part to reach out but still PRIDE RULES for you. So, be it. Remain to be secretive.

And speaking of secrecy, a couple should be open to each other. I got irritated from a response from you concerning passwords.

One time, I logged-in on his account only to find out he had it change without informing me. Darn!

During our conversation, I reminded him to harvest his crops 'cause it may gone to waste or withered. You asked why I wasn't able to harvest it and when I answered you have changed your password, you just laughed. Do u think it's funny, to make me look stupid? Pissed off. Excuse me, I never asked for your password then. It was you who insisted to let me have it to have your farms tended but then, why the sudden changed?? Are you hiding something? I dunno, only you could answer that question.

You could have told me "I'm gonna change my password." or "Oy, pinalitan ko na password ko, FYI" . At least, I knew. "Ahh ok" [this would be my answer]. That's it. I will not bother myself to look after your farms. I respect your rights, your privacy but don't make me look stupid 'cause I don't deserve to be treated this way. I don't deserve to be played around. Do pay some respect. I really felt bad about that incident. I hope you'll realize things and see the importance of valuing people and their feelings. Be sensitive and considerate also to someone else's feelings. Are you fond of doing such thing?

You're the one making the move to make me think things that I shouldn't be thinking. What we need in a relationship is TRUST, FAITHFULNESS, RESPECT, LOYALTY and LOVE. Despite the distance. We once vowed we'll make it work. Now, what? What we have is hanging on a cliff.

There may be anguish, bitterness and a mixed of emotions about this post but that special feeling still lingers...

Now, tell me. Who's unbelievable? :)

SNICKER-DOODLE

I got my first taste of this delicacy when I attended the Seminar on LOVE & COMMITMENT, as per invitation by my good friend Edz. At first, you'd think its an ordinary pancake or the native palitaw [grind rice cake, sort of] topped with cinnamon powder. But this one is more like a baked biscuit.

Anyways, we had a short meeting [Shane, Edz and I] for the upcoming Alumni Homecoming of our dear Alma Mater. Edz served some coffee and that started a long way of our conversation. From the arrival of Shane's vacation from an Asian Escapade, matters of the heart follows 'cause of his post on his Facebook account, [hmmm...well, on my part, can't relate too much excitement since we're not in good terms right now with my honey but surely i miss him so much..], work loads, relevant stuffs and this blogger and Edz were in total excitement when Shane mentioned we can set foot to Asia or have it call an Asian Escapade too, at a very affortable cost once the right time calls for it. Weeee!!!! He's got some ideas kasi, wait niyo na lang, ok? I'll be posting some pictures, of course! hehehe :B

And...the main highlight of the meet up was the upcoming graduation ball. We still have few more weeks to prepare and we do hope everything will take place as planned. We are crossing our fingers.

Anyways, Shane and Edz will meet up with the School President on Wednesday to talk on important matters. Can't go with them since we're a bit busy at school setting up for the inspection which will be conducted by TESDA. Our school applied for the accreditation as Assessment Center for Health Care Services NC 2, Computer Hardware Servicing NC 2, Bartending NC 2 and other competencies from the HRM Department. Hopefully, approval shall be granted. We'll pray for that.

Thanks, guys! It was a good coffee-bonding. A single cup or should I say MUG [hehe] of coffee goes a long way of chitchat and exploration of brilliant ideas and visions. Looking forward to the fulfillment of the group's plans. Thank you for the SNICKER-DOODLE, Edz. As promised, I extended my gratitude on my Facebook account. Pres, thanks for taking me home :)

Goodnight :)

True love

Just wanna share a text message sent by a friend:

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength,

While loving someone deeply

gives you courage and inspiration . . .

Continue to love and be loved!

A very timely message since I'm happy and currently in love right now :)

Congrats on your new laptop, honey! I miss you! ;-)